#AMonthOnFilm – Alone

10—Alone Left alone we wither…even with rain all around us #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 10, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Open

9—Open Trying to remember to keeps my hands open, not tightly clenched shut with anxiety which produces physical pain in addition to emotional pain. Also, trying to keep my “hands open” to new, healthy opportunities and routines for ongoing healing. A very challenging, scary process that can be rewarding. #amonthonfilm is a photo project withContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Open”

#AMonthOnFilm – I’m feeling…

8—I’m feeling… I’m feeling like a plant trying to grow up through a crack in the sidewalk during the middle of a storm. Growing through concrete is extremely painful and difficult, and people can step on plants growing in the sidewalk. The storm is scary, terrifying, cold, uncomfortable and the rain it brings provides nourishmentContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – I’m feeling…”

#AMonthOnFilm – Hands

7—Hands Ben and Abigail peeling and grating potatoes for potato salad that Gideon requested for his birthday meal. I was so overwhelmed and didn’t feel capable of making potato salad and wanted to be able to make what Gideon requested. Ben told me he would do it, so I just helped with it and feltContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Hands”

#AMonthOnFilm – Looking up

6—Looking up Laying in the grass at sunset, at the edge of the yard where it meets the corn field looking up at the beautiful sky. I listened to the corn blowing in the breeze, heard the loud insects buzzing all around me, felt the breeze blowing across my skin and the pressure of theContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Looking up”

#AMonthOnFilm – Traces of COVID

5—Traces of COVID This probably isn’t what most people think of for traces of covid. People in masks and markers for “social distancing” are very common. Something that seems to be less commonly mentioned is the toll covid is taking on our mental health. I already had intense mental health struggles before covid and nowContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Traces of COVID”

#AMonthOnFilm – Outside looking in

4—Outside looking in My view from the front porch looking in at my family around the table at the end of supper. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 4, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by TheContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Outside looking in”

#AMonthOnFilm – Routine

3—Routine Ben preparing to put ylang ylang essential oil combined with carrier oil on me. This has become part of my daily routine—every 2 hours while I’m awake we apply essential oil to me in order to help with my trauma response and mental health symptoms. The symptoms are so intense and debilitating and canContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Routine”

#AMonthOnFilm – 6 pm

2—6 pm 6 pm light shining through through the mist of the essential oil diffuser. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 2, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – A sacred space

1—A sacred space In bed holding my NewSpring Bible. It was an incredibly meaningful gift for my birthday in August. In a way it symbolizes a starting over. A realization that I’m more interested in the truth of the Bible and what God says and thinks than pleasing church culture. I’ve always had this inContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – A sacred space”