#AMonthOnFilm – Empty

20—Empty A collection of empty Jolly Rancher wrappers. Sometimes these empty wrappers will accumulate near me as I try to cope, until I can go throw them away. Over the past few months I’ve been slowly eating hard candy when my anxiety is super intense or sometimes during emotional or somatic flashbacks. It helps toContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Empty”

#AMonthOnFilm – 8 a.m. bedsheets

19—8 a.m. bedsheets Where I sleep, where I sometimes lie awake with fear and anxiety, where I rest, where a lot goes on in my mind while sleeping and dreaming and while awake. Even though I often don’t feel safe I am thankful for a place that is safe to rest. #amonthonfilm is a photoContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – 8 a.m. bedsheets”

#AMonthOnFilm – Early morning

18—Early morning Opened my eyes at 7:00 a.m., saw this, got out of bed, grabbed my digital and film cameras that I had placed on my nightstand last night, and took this picture and a few others with my digital camera. Mornings are usually extremely challenging for me—filled with lots of anxiety, depression and oftenContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Early morning”

#AMonthOnFilm – Moving

17—Moving Today I thought it would be good for me to do some extra walking in addition to my regular, everyday exercising to help cope and calm. I went outside in the evening and walked our yard and driveway—so here I am walking through the yard. Not sure how this will turn out, it’s alwaysContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Moving”

#AMonthOnFilm – Inside looking out

16—Inside looking out Inside looking out Hiding down in the dark basement Trapped in the terror of my trauma Looking through the dirty, broken window I cannot see clearly This what I’ve always known I don’t see what everyone else sees My vision is tinted by the colors of fear, distrust, danger, terror Am IContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Inside looking out”

#AMonthOnFilm – A moment that will not come again

15—A moment that will not come again Hannah cleaning out the skillet in the sink after the kids used it to make themselves eggs for lunch. There may be similar moments like this in the future but this exact moment will never come again. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographersContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – A moment that will not come again”

#AMonthOnFilm – Through

14—Through Just looking through the broken and bent stalks at an ear of corn growing in the field along the edge of our yard. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 14, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scannedContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Through”

#AMonthOnFilm – Mess

13—Mess The empty pizza pan with remains of leftover homemade pizza we enjoyed for lunch and rainbows—a beautiful mess (to me anyway) #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 13, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by TheContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Mess”

#AMonthOnFilm – Afternoon shadow & pieces

12—Afternoon shadow Early afternoon shadow of a plant that was a gift from a friend during a dark time. I’m thankful for a little more sunshine today after several very cloudy days in a row. 12–Pieces Pieces of a puzzle the kids were working on that also seemed to have some shadows too. I reallyContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Afternoon shadow & pieces”

#AMonthOnFilm – Layers & Blue

11—Layers & Blue The Body Keeps The Score, my blue pencil for underlining, phone and water sitting next to the bath tub my husband filled with water, Epsom salt and essential oils for me. Some of the steps I’m taking. I’m desperate for help in dealing with the layers of trauma, help in managing theContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Layers & Blue”