#AMonthOnFilm – Layers

11—Layers

Layers of emotions, feelings and trauma written on layers of paper in my journal

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 11, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Something comforting

10—Something comforting

Holding onto my blanket while sitting on the couch. Had a really hard afternoon and spent it on the couch with the comfort of my soft, warm blanket

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 10, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – A mindful moment

9—A mindful moment

Went outside on the porch while it was raining at a time when I was struggling—hearing the rain, feeling the rain, seeing the rain

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 9, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – I’m feeling…

8—I’m feeling…

Extra anxious, depressed, not really here, just wanting to fade away forever

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 8, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Hands

7—Hands

Ben’s hand on my leg. His hands on my leg or back often help provide gentle comfort and calm in the middle of extreme anxiety, somatic flashbacks and emotional flashbacks. I am thankful for the support he gives through his hands especially when there are no words sufficient for the moment.

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 7, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Looking up

6—Looking up
Just looking up at the sunset sky from our yard. I took two shots because I was anxious and rushed through the first shot and didn’t think I got a very good view the first time.

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 6, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Traces of covid

5—Traces of covid
Just a picture on my phone that I took yesterday of me and Ben at his oncology appointment. It was so strange to have to go through a screening line to enter the hospital and have to wear a mask (until now that’s been normal for my husband but not me). I was fortunate to be able to attend the appointment because they were not going to allow anyone to come with him but did approved me to come since we had other appointments and came from a distance.

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 5, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Outside looking in

4—Outside looking in
Just a basic photo with me standing on the porch at sunset looking through the living room window at all 4 kids facing me. I enjoy this photo and I would have liked to have taken a less posed, more real life or documentary style picture but I guess I decided to play it safe since I was shooting film. That one frame is precious and I didn’t want it to be a complete flop.

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 4, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Routine

3—Routine
Here are my feet on the Wii balance board. My exercise is part of my routine. This gentle exercise— at least walking each day—has been so helpful for me. It might seem cheesy and ineffective but for me, right now, this is what works and is attainable. I don’t expect to be in fantastic shape or slim and trim, it’s just something I do for the sake of my mental health that has become a habit, a part of my routine. I am thankful for the way this healthy routine has improved my mental health and my life.

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 3, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – 6 pm

2—6 pm

The sun shining on weeds across the street from our house. I am thankful to live in the country with quiet, open space and a beautiful view as the sun sets.

#amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on Instagram
Photo taken: June 2, 2020

For this project I used: Nikon FE, Kodak Portra 400

film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab