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#AMonthOnFilm – Inside looking out

16—Inside looking out Inside looking out Hiding down in the dark basement Trapped in the terror of my trauma Looking through the dirty, broken window I cannot see clearly This what I’ve always known I don’t see what everyone else sees My vision is tinted by the colors of fear, distrust, danger, terror Am IContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Inside looking out”

#AMonthOnFilm – A moment that will not come again

15—A moment that will not come again Hannah cleaning out the skillet in the sink after the kids used it to make themselves eggs for lunch. There may be similar moments like this in the future but this exact moment will never come again. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographersContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – A moment that will not come again”

#AMonthOnFilm – Through

14—Through Just looking through the broken and bent stalks at an ear of corn growing in the field along the edge of our yard. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 14, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scannedContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Through”

#AMonthOnFilm – Mess

13—Mess The empty pizza pan with remains of leftover homemade pizza we enjoyed for lunch and rainbows—a beautiful mess (to me anyway) #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 13, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by TheContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Mess”

#AMonthOnFilm – Afternoon shadow & pieces

12—Afternoon shadow Early afternoon shadow of a plant that was a gift from a friend during a dark time. I’m thankful for a little more sunshine today after several very cloudy days in a row. 12–Pieces Pieces of a puzzle the kids were working on that also seemed to have some shadows too. I reallyContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Afternoon shadow & pieces”

#AMonthOnFilm – Layers & Blue

11—Layers & Blue The Body Keeps The Score, my blue pencil for underlining, phone and water sitting next to the bath tub my husband filled with water, Epsom salt and essential oils for me. Some of the steps I’m taking. I’m desperate for help in dealing with the layers of trauma, help in managing theContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Layers & Blue”

#AMonthOnFilm – Alone

10—Alone Left alone we wither…even with rain all around us #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 10, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Open

9—Open Trying to remember to keeps my hands open, not tightly clenched shut with anxiety which produces physical pain in addition to emotional pain. Also, trying to keep my “hands open” to new, healthy opportunities and routines for ongoing healing. A very challenging, scary process that can be rewarding. #amonthonfilm is a photo project withContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Open”

#AMonthOnFilm – I’m feeling…

8—I’m feeling… I’m feeling like a plant trying to grow up through a crack in the sidewalk during the middle of a storm. Growing through concrete is extremely painful and difficult, and people can step on plants growing in the sidewalk. The storm is scary, terrifying, cold, uncomfortable and the rain it brings provides nourishmentContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – I’m feeling…”

#AMonthOnFilm – Hands

7—Hands Ben and Abigail peeling and grating potatoes for potato salad that Gideon requested for his birthday meal. I was so overwhelmed and didn’t feel capable of making potato salad and wanted to be able to make what Gideon requested. Ben told me he would do it, so I just helped with it and feltContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Hands”