#AMonthOnFilm – Water

26—Water Yesterday evening and night was very challenging and draining as I experienced intense emotional and somatic flashbacks, and extreme anxiety and depression. Today I’m still struggling so my main goal was to do some gentle exercising and take a shower. I wasn’t sure I would be able to do all of that today. ButContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Water”

#AMonthOnFilm – After dinner

25—After dinner Just some of the items left on the table after we enjoyed a meal of taco salad. #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 25, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Still life

24—Still life Ben and my wedding rings seemed like an appropriate idea since today (9/24) is our 15th wedding anniversary. I am so thankful God brought us together, that we have each other and that we’re growing and learning together. I wasn’t sure we’d get to celebrate 15 years of marriage due to Ben’s healthContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Still life”

#AMonthOnFilm – Through the doorway

23—Through the doorway Looking through the kitchen doorway at chicken enchiladas and rice we are making for supper #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 23, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Self

22—Self I want to hide my whole self, I am scared I am so much more than what people see—I am a body, a mind, a spirit, a soul He sees me, He loves me, He knows me more intimately than any person ever could. I do not need to be afraid of Him. #amonthonfilmContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Self”

#AMonthOnFilm – A feeling

21—A feeling Trapped in darkness, trying to find a way to the light #amonthonfilm is a photo project with prompts hosted by two photographers on InstagramPhoto taken: September 21, 2020 For this project I used: Nikon F100, Kodak Portra 400 film developed & scanned by The Darkroom Lab

#AMonthOnFilm – Empty

20—Empty A collection of empty Jolly Rancher wrappers. Sometimes these empty wrappers will accumulate near me as I try to cope, until I can go throw them away. Over the past few months I’ve been slowly eating hard candy when my anxiety is super intense or sometimes during emotional or somatic flashbacks. It helps toContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Empty”

#AMonthOnFilm – 8 a.m. bedsheets

19—8 a.m. bedsheets Where I sleep, where I sometimes lie awake with fear and anxiety, where I rest, where a lot goes on in my mind while sleeping and dreaming and while awake. Even though I often don’t feel safe I am thankful for a place that is safe to rest. #amonthonfilm is a photoContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – 8 a.m. bedsheets”

#AMonthOnFilm – Early morning

18—Early morning Opened my eyes at 7:00 a.m., saw this, got out of bed, grabbed my digital and film cameras that I had placed on my nightstand last night, and took this picture and a few others with my digital camera. Mornings are usually extremely challenging for me—filled with lots of anxiety, depression and oftenContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Early morning”

#AMonthOnFilm – Moving

17—Moving Today I thought it would be good for me to do some extra walking in addition to my regular, everyday exercising to help cope and calm. I went outside in the evening and walked our yard and driveway—so here I am walking through the yard. Not sure how this will turn out, it’s alwaysContinue reading “#AMonthOnFilm – Moving”