Into the unknown. . .

An image I made as a way to cope while my husband drove me to a neurofeedback appointment. Recently I’ve been taking my camera with me sometimes and take photos of things that I notice from the passenger seat as a way to try to help myself cope. The photos I take are by no means fantastic images and they do serve a deep purpose for me. This helps me try to focus on the present moment and my beautiful surroundings as we drive 1 1/2 hours each direction to my neurofeedback appointments twice each week. I constantly deal with intense anxiety and depression, and as I go to and participate in neurofeedback appointments, feel as though I’m stepping into the unknown. While neurofeedback is very safe and helpful for me I never know how I will be functioning, if I may be severely “triggered” at any point, what type of anxiety and trauma symptoms I may experience due to my history (not because neurofeedback is harmful). It’s a very frightening thing for me and each time and I do my best to trust God, courageously fight for life, growth and healing in this enormous battle, and remember the supportive people I have, and that this is a part of the recovery and healing process. Therapeutic photography has helped to keep me alive and I’m very thankful for this helpful part of me that creates these images which is an effective coping tool for me.

I decided to share some of the photos and writing I’ve shared over on my Flickr account. If you’re interested in seeing more of those images you can check them out here.